Every Monday morning, I pray you have a good week
Every evening, I pray you fall in to a sound sleep
Every Friday, I pray your weekend will be safe
Every Sunday, I pray you are in a peaceful place
And sometimes, when I’m feeling selfish, I pray you will be mine again
An atheist caught in a cycle of prayer.
Sometimes I wonder what I did to lose you, then I remember I’m the first woman you’ve ever fucked without a condom and you won’t ever trust or love anyone as much as you trusted or loved me. I didn’t lose you. You’ll be back.
A wise friend once told me, patience is a virtue.
You were right.
So I’ll wait for you.
Seconds, minutes, hours. Days, months, weeks and years.
Don’t worry, my love, I am not actively awaiting your return.
You would not want that, and I am tired of being sad.
Just know, I’ll always be yours.
I am sprung on you, my love, and I do need you back.
Just not today.
And probably not tomorrow.
But I’ll be waiting, sweetness.
I would ride or die for you, and you’re a pussy.
Where are my fucking priorities?
You can not handle this.
The most violent waves crashing on the shore.
The angriest flames burning away at the Earth.
The sharpest of winds tearing down all in its path.
You can not handle it.
For I am mother nature, and you are a weatherman.
Happiness just seems so fake to me.
Happiness is Yeezy’s bought at a flea market.
Happiness is a counterfeit Benjamin.
Happiness is faux fur trenchs.
Happiness is a Louis Vuitton bag bought off a street cart in NYC.
Happiness simply is some designer shit were all trying to cop but can’t so we just front some knock off bullshit.
HAPPINESS IS FAKE!
I hate you, and I hate being alive. I hate that you make me hate being alive. I hate everything about you. I hate how you make me feel. I hate that you are gone. I hate your smile. I hate your friends. I hate that I can not make you happy anymore. I hate your front of disinterest. I hate your reserved demeanor. I hate that I am not over you. I hate your happiness. I hate that I doubt that you are really happy but will never ask. I hate that it has been a month without speaking. I hate being weak. I hate you for making me feel weak. FUCK YOU.