Every Monday morning, I pray you have a good week
Every evening, I pray you fall in to a sound sleep
Every Friday, I pray your weekend will be safe
Every Sunday, I pray you are in a peaceful place
And sometimes, when I’m feeling selfish, I pray you will be mine again
An atheist caught in a cycle of prayer.
Sometimes I wonder what I did to lose you, then I remember I’m the first woman you’ve ever fucked without a condom and you won’t ever trust or love anyone as much as you trusted or loved me. I didn’t lose you. You’ll be back.
A wise friend once told me, patience is a virtue.
You were right.
So I’ll wait for you.
Seconds, minutes, hours. Days, months, weeks and years.
Don’t worry, my love, I am not actively awaiting your return.
You would not want that, and I am tired of being sad.
Just know, I’ll always be yours.
I am sprung on you, my love, and I do need you back.
Just not today.
And probably not tomorrow.
But I’ll be waiting, sweetness.
kill me on a bed of roses, fuck me in a bath of blood